16. Rehearsing: Our Role Reversal

It’s the day before
     And I rehearse my remarks
For you
And Cary
     Are unable to listen
Without breaking down
The first time
Second
Third; on the fourth you leave the room.
     You return wearing ear protectors.
We laugh.
I don’t expect this;
I’m the one terrified
     Of public speaking,
You’re a natural―
So naturally
I need to do this;
I want to do this
     For you
; And me.
You’re my role model
     My rock
And it rocks my frayed resolve
When I see you dissolve.