The Babe Effect

“From little things big things grow.”

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My roadmap to  freedom, Babe Effect is a travelogue. Each story in the series progresses through time while crossing vast emotional terrain. All told, it is a tale of love and transformation. The name: an homage to the friends, family and strangers who inspire me daily to step up to a fuller version of my own potential. 

The first four stories in the series illuminate my past. The fifth shares a record of the present. The final two exist only in my dreams—for now.  

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I: The w2k Chronicles

Written monthly over six years, The w2k Chronicles is a timeless tale of self discovery, potential and the search for fulfillment. It is my story of a young woman’s journey to find her voice and heal self esteem.

II: Page Turner Fantasies

Hell is a place you visit alone; everyone has one. Catalyzed by love and fueled by longing, I chased desire down the rabbit hole until I found its source; until I found myself. My missing years, this portion of my journey is glimpsed only in summary; stories rendered as artpage turner fantasies. 

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III: My Career Revue

The truth and nothing but humor. Relating the highlights of my work life as satire, My Career Revue pays tribute to my father who gave me my standard of possible. He modeled the art of living well; taught me to recognize and harness the power of attitude; and advised me to never forget that hard work is a substitute for performance. 

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IV: The Poetry of Dementia

The Poetry of Dementia shares my family’s journey with my mother’s illness as a collection of moments—a poem a day written the last year of her life. Loving and caring for my mother at home fundamentally changed us, and served as a daily reminder to live fully in the present with love, trust and patience. This is my story of embracing forgiveness, discovering love and learning to let go.

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V: Beginning Again

The evening before I left Buffalo, New York to begin a new life—again—I learned that a beautiful, young woman I’d known had taken her life. The news came as a shock. From a distance, she appeared serene and successful. But I know well enough that below the surface we all live complicated lives of contradictions and conflict. I imagine my life appears serene and successful. Most days, it feels that way—but not always. Beginning Again is a new daily project I am writing and sharing in Cortney’s memory. I offer my own vulnerable and varied truth, because living is both an art and an ordeal. Every day a maddening mix of daunting and delightful. 

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VI: Unfinished Business

Equal parts love story, fantasy and history, Unfinished Business witnesses the return of Germaine de Staël in a conscious collaboration with her blood and soul descendent—the autobiographical heroine of her imagined third novel. 

A celebrated champion for Liberty at the turn of the 19th century and midwife to the Romantic Age, Germaine de Staël was uncommonly brilliant, overtly sexual and simultaneously respected and feared as one of the most influential voices of her time. Napoleon regarded Mme. de Staël as his personal nemesis and she is honored for the prominent role she played in orchestrating his downfall. 

“Had she been born a man, three quarters of her talents would not have been spent in combat to hold affection and justify her right to be herself; the role she played and the work she left, though remarkable, are only a fraction of the potential she could have realized without the handicap of her sex.” — J. Christopher Herold, Mistress to an Age

Illuminating the suffocating gender constraints of her time, and the soul’s innate impulse for self expression and fulfilling love, de Staël gave us the enduring myth of the suffering heroine. In Unfinished Business, de Staël reimagines the feminine archetype and dreams into being her emancipated heroine—the final act in her groundbreaking trilogy.

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VII: Falling Apples

Falling Apples honors my parents’ legacy through a poetic dialog on beauty, desire and the fruits of love.  

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